It’s true. Freedom does lie beyond fear. Fear looks like a tall giant with the core of a rotten egg. It smells as bad as the same, and as powerful. It disseminates itself to every corner of the territory it has just invaded, blinding, or rather choking that territory’s original inhabitants. This giant is true to its name – it’s so big that there is no space for it to have a home of its own. It has no choice but to invade. In other words, it is homeless. It’s vulnerable, and has no place to go except where it is accepted.
The choice, then lies with the residents of the territory Fear sets its eyes on. I do understand, however that fear can sometimes be so imposing and large (it is a giant after all), that turning a blind eye to it proves to be difficult. Every time I have looked it in the eye, it has done the same to me. Instead of looking at my eyes, however, it bore a hole through them, and walked straight inside without any form of invitation. It invaded my mind. It’s baffling how something so large could possibly fit in my brain though. All I can remember from that time is its presence. Every nerve that transmitted messages did so to the fear that now resided in my brain. I was the victim of this loud, large, and obnoxiously rude ‘giant’ that somehow managed to live in a territory much smaller that itself.
If this creature can sustain itself in a place where it can seemingly not even fit, the alternative conclusion would be that it isn’t really as big as it seems. It spreads itself everywhere at the same time though. How would that be possible? Well, it does have a powerful smell. I would not be questioning any of this, had I not experienced this paradox associated with fear myself. The only way to the freedom that lies beyond fear really is through it. This still does not answer how fear is able to spread itself out so well though. It does the task as efficiently as one would want it not to.
One probable answer could be that fear, when it takes over the victim’s mind, is not only demanding room to stay, but also nourishment.
If the fear is unable to look away from, and it somehow manages to enter one’s mind, the only way to let go of it is to starve it. To refrain from taking any pity on an unwanted guest. Give it no attention, and no reason to stay. When it gets no returns, it will lose the power with which it has inflated itself , and go back to being exactly what it is: the equivalent of a rotten egg. The key to turning it away, however, is to recognize its smell and disallow it from choking you. In turn, the key I have found to doing this is nothing but faith in the key to turning it away. 🙂
See you soon,